Dum dee dum dee dumm~
HI.
I’m an emotionally drained crazy sociopath who desires so much love and attention from the one i love which i don’t even know who i am anymore.Well,sometimes i think i’m like that.Infact,I am like that,but just am acting all perfect in front of everyone,living a good life,happy and all.WHEN I’M NOT.
When i said life is great months ago,it might just be ‘life actually sucks’.I’m just faking it.So afraid to lose,so afraid that people will eventually find out that i’m just weak and all.When i decided to go to Melbourne,it wasn’t for fun.I was lying.I went to Melbourne just to run away from things.
From.Getting hurt.
I just want to forget&avoid;stop talking to that person that i actually wish to see him and hear from him everyday.But eventually,when i came back to Malaysia,i still have to face the fact that we didn’t let go.It was a hell hole to live for the past two months.But there was no one to be blamed.It was fate.
It kept me thinking,what if thing didn’t happened this way?What if we met each other earlier?What if i didn’t make that decision?What if my ego weren’t so high?What if we don’t get upset over petty little things and start arguing?
Things would have changed.Or maybe,things will be better.My friends were right,i have a choice.But i chose striving on the pain because i have nothing left.Just bittersweet memories.I know i couldn’t let go,that’s why i chose to escape.But it didn’t work.Not at all..I said i wanted to move on,but yet i fall back once,twice,thrice.Knowing that i’ll end up getting hurt again&again,still,i gave in.
I can’t blame anyone but myself.I’m not gonna give in any excuse and say ‘oh its all who or who’s fault’ or maybe ‘I’m too stupid to trust’.Because i know it,but i want it that way.
Love.
That’s what it is all about.
‘Maybe you should take a break from all this drama that you’re having.You’re suffocating.’ My girls has been telling me this again&again.Plus there were too much of emotional baggage from my past.
I truly agree that i really needed a break.And i’m really sick of having people around me who starts persuading me that getting into a relationship is good thing.I don’t think i need your advice,and i’m not interested in you either.SO YEAH.And friends of mine,i know some of you care,but stop pushing me to people that i really have no interest in anymore.I just get so annoyed really easily lately,i just need you people to leave me alone.FOR ONCE.I haven been seeing anyone,i don’t have anyone and i’m totally fine with it!And i’m only frggin twenty please,don’t make me sound like i’m frggin forty year old that no one wants.Worse comes to worst,if no one wants me till i hit forty,i’ll just stay with Samantha with seventy-two cats the rest of my life(Inside joke).I’d always tease her that no one will want her and she’ll live with seventy-two cats as an old lady in the suburb if she’s still acting like a baby.HAHAHAHAHA.
Plus,not everyone can be replaced so easily.If you know what i mean :)
Apparently,i get lucky in September.
Gym&work surely is keeping things out of my mind!Also,the group of crazy friends of mine.My life doesn’t involve with a lot of partying anymore,but drinking,YES.What’s life without alcohol!But i’m certainly not an alcoholic.Don’t remember when was the day i got wasted anymore.Never had a chance :p
Nyways,enough of all the pussy talks.Updates!September babies on board!
Jordan’s birthday celebration at The Hills.
A picture before everyone gets smashed.
Flaming Lambo for the birthday boy.
Drunk candid!HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.Looks like he had too much to drink.
Helenness 23rd birthday bash at Rootz!
Neon babies!Had fun catching up with everyone!Feels like i haven seen them in ages!
Yours truly x Sheena
Levy :)
Mooncake festival celebration @ Doll’s crib.
It was planned spontaneously without a plan.LOL
Went to get groceries before the barbecue session starts.
Candles and lanterns.Just like old times :)
What’s better than dipping into the pool after a hot and sweaty barbecue session!With some beer of course.Yay!
Played this drinking game which can be very brutal and vulgar called ‘I never ever’ which led us laughter till the end of the night.We girls are just terrible at times!But it was fun.
First working experience at 7atenine for a wedding cocktail party,which was pretty fun to be a part of it.It was like a one day job,just doing a friend a favor.
The rests joined us after we knocked off,celebrated Dik Jun’s farewell.Bartenders at 7atenine are extremely nice and generous!Especially after knowing them through work,we got discounts :p
Family.The brothers&sisters.I’m gonna miss you all so much after everyone’s back in UK!
We have to go for Sze Chuan cuisine again!
Kei’s birthday dinner at Tanzini,G Tower.
That’s all for now!x
P/s: Guys always asks and wonder why are girls acting crazily/emotional at times.But when girls cry,do they even bother to ask why?
#Justsaying
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